You are an absolute humiliation junkie. You think you're going to get your life on track, you think you can stand up and tell your dommes no. You will get that pain that says you have to stop, that you have no more money left, no more energy for it. Saying no means you're going to have to push your limits, being encouraged past those hard limits because you were ordered to. You could die...I could order you to end your own suffering, to give me everything you were worth before you go and you'd do it. Down the rabbit hole you go. Th3 rap y cannot help you, no one can help you. There's no hope, no light at the end of the tunnel. We don't give a fuck about you. I order you to hold your breath when I snap and when I snap again I let you breathe. I let you live. I use you for everything you've got.