You've been pumping for hours in an effort to lose your sense of self. Once you start to feel the ache between your legs, time begins to stand still. There's no before, during, or after: There's only NOW. There's only THE ACHE. It becomes the dominant sensation, mixed with pleasure and euphoria. As it intensifies, you no longer exist. A sense of self is based upon who you are before, during, and after an experience, but when the ache takes over, nothing else exists. It's just you and Goddess. You live in this liminal space being endlessly edged by me. The ache is what reminds you that you're alive, and erases you at the same time. An endless cycle that ensures your complete and total erasure.