I step into the studio, heart racing. Moscow’s cold still clings to my coat, but inside it’s warm, lights bright. I’m 18 today, finally here, where my dreams live. Slim, brunette, tattoos curling over my arms and thighs, I feel eyes on me. The studio is famous, only taking virgins. I’m one. Never been with a man, never found that spark. My relationships crashed fast. I only wanted him, the actor from those videos my friends and I shared as teens. We’d giggle, passing links, but his scenes burned into me. Nobody else compared. Lisa, my best friend, was different. We got close once, after vodka and whispers. Her lips soft, her hands bolder, sliding over my chest. We kissed, touched, but stopped short . It felt good, but not enough. I craved more, something wilder, like the dominant scenes I watched, men commanding, women surrendering. I tried touching myself, chasing that rush, but my body wouldn’t give in. No orgasm, just frustration. This studio, they’ll teach me. They have to. I’m led to a room, mirrors on walls, a bed in the center. A man enters, older, kind eyes but firm voice. Producer, maybe. He asks why I’m here. I blush, words stumbling. I tell him about the videos, the actor, my failed tries at pleasure. He nods, no judgment, just listening. You’re perfect for us, he says. My heart jumps. They explain the process. First, a test shoot, soft, just me. They want to see how I move, how I feel. I nod, nervous but ready. A woman, joins us. She’s gentle, tells me to undress slow. My tattoos glow under the lights, stories of rebellion on my skin. I’m shy but excited, peeling off my shirt, jeans, then more. They watch, guide me to the couch. Touch yourself, they say. Like in the videos. I try, hands trembling, copying what I’ve seen. It’s awkward, but their voices push me. Relax, they say. Feel it. I close my eyes, picturing him, his rough hands, his voice commanding. My body wakes, heat building, but it’s not enough. I whimper, frustrated. The room feels alive, watching me. I’m not there yet, but I’m closer. This is my start, my chance to become what I’ve dreamed. The studio will shape me. I’m ready!