When you unpromptedly bring up over and over how you "don't want to eat [your] cum", it is a clear sign that you are desperate for a hot brat to demand you do it. It is on your mind. You're curious. But the shame and embarrassment of wanting to do something so filthy keep you from taking the plunge on your own. Instead, you want a hot internet brat to talk you into it. To tease you into it with giggles and humiliation. It gives you plausible deniability. You aren't eating your cum because you are a cum guzzling beta. No, no, no, not you! You are slurping down your splooge in the loser position because a pretty girl told you to in a cum countdown. And that is like, soooooo much hotter. I know you wanna do it.