I feel safe when I am alone it's such an important - understand what do you feel and what do you like? For example, I like touch my neck or my nipples or my feet when I, when I'm going exciting. I also love to touch my hands. I just have something inside. Some emotions. I need to let them go off. Because without it, I'm going to be crazy. I just feel separated from my body, from my emotions and my brain and everything is separated and it's too hard to be here in the moment. If inside I'm separated. I like masturbate.