I found like a book about something like about human anatomy or maybe something more raunchy whatever it was, it had a lot of like sexual information in it and there was like an anatomy of a vagina and like the way you are supposed to masturbate? And I was like okay I'm gonna try it there was a very big moral dilemma I was like, oh my God, am I doing it? Like what I'm doing is wrong, what if angels are watching me? I was very much conflicted. So I would come very fast