The hidden side of a plain-looking office lady: A mature beauty livestreamer's humiliating live broadcast “I can't believe I stayed with a plain woman like you for 15 years. I'm tired of it.” When my husband said those words as we parted, I realized I had no value as a woman. I had no self-esteem or desire for recognition... I was a lonely 42-year-old middle-aged woman. That's when I discovered livestreaming. As the number of viewers grew and I started receiving tips, streaming became my reason for living. A middle-aged woman like me was being noticed by everyone. Everyone needed me. I wasn't just a plain woman. My desire for validation escalated day by day.